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i thought you’d like some new material of my face.

here you go you’re welcome

Friday:

yo yo yo yo I hope you’re well, and things are going alright for you, tell me what’s been going on- how are things with school, have things calmed down at all since last time we spoke? How’s ye health, how are the boobies?;) (sorry I had to say it)

Things are good, I’m scared about my English literature exam in a weeks time, but but but: I got an A in my coursework essay yayyy

AND I have the highest grades on my course.

YES ELLA YOU LEGEND YOU.

lol

I joke

but, pretty pleased as I’ve been workin’ ma ass off sista.

much love 

xxxxxxxxxxxx

destructs: MyeongBeom Kim
paulabraconnot: Hidden

Luna, 

things have been going really well the past weeks, better than ever I thought. 

But it’s my parents. 

A couple of days ago my dad confronted me and said that he was worried about me. It’s ironic because when I’m doing better than I have ever been doing in years, he finally confronts me HAAAAAAAa oh my fucking god.

And, today, my day was ruined when I read this in my mothers diary.

I know I shouldn’t read her things, because whenever there is a slight mention of me, it’s usually crushing in some way.

”I feel so much better and it’s good to be back at yoga again, though I do feel I need to  loose a few pounds. I found a letter from Doctors that Ella had an appointment regarding her eating disorder. I guess she has lost a lot of weight”

Luna, you don’t know how mad it made me when I read it. She knows about my ed and hasn’t said anything to me and it hurts so bad.

I can’t believe that even in her diary she has the nerve to associate my eating disorder with her wanting to lose a few pounds, like ‘oh, that’s right, almost forgot! I found a letter regarding my daughters eating disorder. Anyhoo, back to yoga I go”

see, I’m joking about it, but fuck, it killed me so bad.

I’ve been doing so fucking well lately Luna, everything has been lovely, and pedro has been wonderful, and everything has just been great for me, and I’ve been happy but this, I don’t even know what to do with myself, it’s so fucking triggering to know that she knows and still doesn’t care. you know? 

xxxxx

Soorry I haven’t been on for a while

college has been busy busy as always, 

and and and

I went to London with Pedro for 3 days! 

staying with the same people that we did last time, when we accidentally went to london. haha

Luna, it was so so good. 

So much happened in such a short time, and it was so good to have a break from college and spend all my time with him. 

We got the coach there and back which takes around 5 hours each way, but it was only like £12 which is ridiculously cheap and I didn’t mind the journey anyway.

It was just, 

ahh, I want to tell you all about it, I’ll write in more detail about it soon but I have to write an essay for English that she wants me to send to her by tonight (hahahahhahahahhahahahhahahhahahahhahahahhaha bitch)

love you love you

xx

to be perfectly honest man, I wasn’t really listening to anything you just said, because holy shit you look so hot 

you look like a vintage pinup girl or something

ugh

stop it you.

ANYWAY

I love your hair, and your ring, and what you’re wearing and

I’m so glad everything went well with your operation, you’re such a trooper. 

<3

oooooooooooooooooh what’s the video project?

will I get to see anything from it ?

gjhkl

ps. my favourite part of the video is how you said ”I feel dandy”

hahaha

I feel daaayundy. 

(Source: the-sentimentalists)

the-sentimentalists:

heeeey i found that video i made for you, its pretty pointless but still :) enjoyyy

ugh stop being so fabulous

I love your work ethic man, truly inspiring ;)

Ana Somnia - lights out!

the-sentimentalists:

A whole world waits for you when you turn out the lights. In our dreams, lie childish figures, random shapes and half remembered memories. Each one is different yet somehow the same. Ana Somnia is a generative art project that emulates how we dream. Dim your lights to enter Ana`s dreamworld.

This really reminded me of you and your art.. What you have to do is go to this website at night and once its loaded, you turn off your light and the little girl starts dreaming. Nothing scary pops up or anything, its just really magical. If you turn on your light, she wakes up. I really liked it, I think you might too :)

oooh, I’d heard of this before! but never done it:) I loove it

it’s so calming

I think I might just watch it for a few hours thanks

sorry coursework.

the-sentimentalists:

cannot tell if bottle of water from under my bed tastes like science lab because it was once carbonated or because it has gone really wrong

too thirsty to careimage

So I had a panic attack about going to Italy with Pedro, 

it’s all pretty official now, and so it got me into my paranoid state and i started thinking; omg 2 weeks. I won’t be able to get away with anything, and he’s going to witness all my mood swings and i’m going to have to eat in public and what if we have to go out with his relatives or his italian friends and holy shit 2 weeks holy fuck i’m going to die and i’m going to get so bad and ugh ugh ugh. 

So.

Today I decided that I want to prevent myself from having a breakdown, anxiety attack, going into depression mode whilst i’m there. I know it’s not until july, but I thought I had better start preparing as I am really super anxious about how my ed will get in the way of having a good time. 

Anyway, so I thought I would share some of the cute pictures that I have gathered in a folder and I am going to print out and stick in a notebook to take with me :) they’re just simple, but even reading them now calms me down a little :)

oh and i’m going to take the little book you made for my birthday with me because that was like the sweetest most wonderful things ever and I love you and thank you for everything you have done and sorry for everything i’ve put you through and how shit I was when you were here and i love you and i love you

OKAY GRAPHICS EXAM IS IN 3 DAYS HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT I’M SO FUCKED OMG WHYY NO NO NO

okay so I won’t be on here for the next few days is what I’m getting at 

:(

wish me luck!

hfgjkl

much love

Hope all is going well, 

school, fam, friends and such. 

Oh, also.

Have you read the Bell Jar by Slyvia Plath?

I bought it so I can finally read it after years of meaning to! So far I’m really enjoying it :)

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So my plan was to complete all the work I need to do for my Graphics exam this Thursday (which has piled up a hell of a lot because I’ve been so incredibly lazy hahahahahha oh fuck.)

BUT

I had more fun pressing my face onto the scanner

so I did that instead and had a whale of a time.

adarasanchez: Jeff Buckley.para iWrite Magazine.
you seemed so sad in your last post and I wanted to make you something to contribute to making you feel better because, lets go ahead and say it, your parents sound like they&#8217;re being little shits. ANYWAY moving on.  You might have to zoom in to see the really deep moving text that I wrote   Love you always owl,  x